Maternity Blues
When the Cradle Rocks & the Bills Keep Coming:
Trusting God in the Stretch
Let’s keep it a buck.
I gave birth five weeks ago—and while I wanted to be wrapped up in newborn bliss, forehead kisses, and that soft baby coo magic, the reality hit differently. I was crying in the bathroom, whispering prayers between clenched teeth, wondering how I’m supposed to provide for these boys when everything feels shaky.
The job situation? Unclear.
The bills? Still hitting.
My heart? Torn between wanting to be soft and needing to be strong.
This post isn’t about pretending it’s all good.
It’s about what it costs to stretch—to hold joy and fear in the same hands. If you're in that place too… I see you. I feel you. And most of all, God hasn’t forgotten you.
When Postpartum Feels Like a Plot Twist
Nobody tells you the hardest part of giving birth might not be the labor—it’s trying to stay afloat when life doesn’t pause for your healing.
I was exhausted, bleeding, breastfeeding, and still trying to figure out how to pay a light bill. I had one hand on the baby and the other scrolling Indeed.
I kept asking, “God, do You see me?”
And His response wasn’t loud. It was gentle, but strong:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9
I don’t have it all together.
But guess what? God does.
Provision Ain’t Always Pretty
We think God’s blessings show up in big, bold ways—but sometimes provision looks like:
A neighbor dropping off diapers
A random Cash App from a friend
A quiet moment where anxiety lifts just enough for you to breathe again
I haven’t gotten a dream job yet, but I’ve gotten just enough manna for today. And that’s how He moves sometimes—not all at once, but faithfully.
Don’t overlook the miracle just because it doesn’t look like money.
This Season Isn’t Small—It’s Sacred
It might not be glamorous, but this stretch? It’s holy.
Every diaper changed. Every tear wiped. Every “Lord, help me” whispered at 3am. You’re building legacy in the middle of lack.
You are sowing in survival—but you will reap in overflow.
Even if this foundation feels cracked, the Builder is unshaken.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him.” – Romans 8:28
Even the broke days. Even the breakdowns. Even the parts you don’t post.
